I feel like I am on an emotional journey right now, and I just don’t know what to do.
Last weekend Stefan had admitted to me that what I had thought was a fun lil’ flirtation actually meant much more to him. He has developed feelings for me and he wants to explore where that takes us. Of course he has!
Early yesterday morning Stefan came over to pick up Röbert, and he looked terrible. He clearly has been spending as much time crying as I have this past week. He and Röbby were headed up to play something called paintball with a group of friends from college, and the place was two hours away. When they got to their friend Saul’s house, Stefan said he was sick, and turned around to come back here, while the rest of the guys headed off for a day of fun.
I had dropped the kiddos off with their grandmama’s housekeeper for the day. Did you know that housekeepers normally have Sundays off? I didn’t. Fortunately I could tell she was home in her lil’ studio over the garage so I played a lil’ game of ding-dong ditch and turned off my phone. I am sure it was her pleasure to have three such adorable children for the day.
Stefan and I drove out to a state park where it was mostly poor people so we knew we wouldn’t see anyone we knew and had a nice walk in the beautiful fall weather and spoke about our feelings and plans and desires.
He wants us to both leave our spouses and be together. He thinks we could take a few months to travel the world and then come back and get married. Just think how jealous everyone would be! In your face, Margie with your stupid annual trips to Disney World! I could blog about which room service waiter is the most obsequious at the George V while you posted your zillionth picture of the teacup ride. LOL!
Of course I am not sure what to do because I am so happily, happily married and adore my children and all that. But we could afford to send Merlin to boarding school and Starling could come visit us on a yacht.
Is it possible to be in love with two men at once?
He also gave me some gorgeous earrings with huge sapphires, but I couldn’t take them. He said he is keeping them safe for me.
I told him I need time to think and so we are waiting until after the holidays to make our final decision. I don’t know what to do! It would be so nice to be really rich.