I have just not felt like myself this week. I had a very upsetting conversation with Stefan last weekend and I have felt very jumpy and nervous all week.
I decided that the most important thing is for me to spend more quality time with Röbert, so I dropped the kiddos with my parents for the night and planned a fun little date night for us. It was not a date night like I would prefer (shopping, dinner at an exclusive restaurant, more shopping…) but something that he seems to enjoy. Not camping. Not even for Röbert could I call camping a date.
When he got home from work I told him to change into some casual clothes and we would go out for some fun. He seemed pretty surprised, but happy. First we went bowling. It wasn’t a gross bowling alley with leagues and all that. It was more of a hipster establishment that I had heard Ty mention. Röbert liked it but I don’t know how you get the ball not to go into those things on the side. I got zero points. It was boring.
Then we went to a sports pub for dinner. It was all fried food so I ordered chicken wings with hot sauce on the side and dipped celery into my vodka for dinner. Röb kept talking about some stupid game that was on a television, I think baseball? Who knows.
We got home and I went into the bathroom and drew myself a nice bubble bath and lit some scented candles and got myself a nice big glass of wine. I sat in there and cried until the water was cold then I poured more hot water in and cried some more.